As a 59-year old, Autistic Savant, I'm tormented by all the
hatred and evil, consuming humanity. So much so, I “contemplated”
an early exit from this craziness. After 5 days of prayer asking the
Lord to forgive my human weakness for what I was contemplating, and
to seek direction for the special mission He planned for my life back in 2005, I finally received His Divine enlightenment. On August 21, 2014, God finally
showed me what (one of) my life's purpose was: to be a martyr by protesting the vise
grip satan has on mankind.
My
physical and emotional suffering & pains had been growing with each tick of the
clock, until rewarded with that enlightenment. Despite 5 years of numerous pleas
& cries for appropriate help, from my fellow man, my words fell
into deafness. I've been told I'm “too complicated” for anyone to
take time to figure out, or “You're intelligent, just do it
yourself”. This is a blatant example of the ignorance that resides
within the human race when they don't live with or understand someone's issues,
especially when an individual has various difficulties controling
their physiological shell and functional actions/activities. It is this general attitude
that exists within the human race that caused me to lose all trust &
hope in mankind. Evil & hatred holds such a lock on mankind, it
becomes difficult for a person to walk away from all the personal
greed, materialism & "ME" mentality way of life..... It's EVERYWHERE you turn! Unless mankind recognizes those chains of bondage, which are all-consuming, self-destruction of the human race WILL be VERY soon.
I have gone
“cold-turkey” off ALL my meds, haven't eaten solid or nutricious
food since Wednesday night, Aug. 20 (& that was a $1.00 bag of
non-nutritious, cheesy corn puffs). I went 30 hours without water,
until 4:30 p.m. Friday, Aug. 22. Unlike the ALS ice bucket challenge to raise money, I'm not on strike to personally benefit,
but at God's request. I WILL NOT eat any food or take meds; only
drink water, flavored liquids with/without electrolytes, and clear
broth (with some cupboard spices added). The only “solid” food
I'm consuming is plain gelatin until the
message about this Hunger Strike is spread around the globe. I have
the TRUTH of God within me and am at PEACE with His request and
whatever the outcome is of this Strike. Are YOU???
Mahatma
Gandhi is someone I've deeply respected and tried to understand in my
lifetime. I consider him to be the only human, since Christ, that "lived" his life in a Godly, selfless and righteous manner. He went on numerous hunger strikes during his lifetime,
lasting up to 21 days. They were usually associated with
imprisonment. His most notable hunger strike was in protest of the hatred & violent battle between India & Pakistan. Being a
non-violent person, his strikes were always in protest for civiI
justice & against human unrest. Gandhi consumed water in his strikes, and on many occasions, fruit for his only nutrients. Hunger strikes have been ongoing
since before Christ; however, every notable striker had a personal
agenda to protest injustice, inhumane conditions, or obtain
restitution from another person who had wronged them. The majority of
hunger strikers in last few hundred years went on strike while in
prison.
This
is where this Strike differs from almost every other strike: first, I'm
not in prison or confined against my will; second, I'm not doing it
as a protest against a small group of perpetrators or single
government entity; and third, am not doing it for my health or
personal gain. On the contrary, I'm doing this Hunger Strike,
selflessly & freely, with God's direction. It's not directed in
protest of a small group of people, country or even continent. This
is a “GLOBAL” protest against satan and his global army of sinful worshippers.
Many
people profess to be Christians, because it's the “in” thing or
proper category to place oneself who is not a murderer or vividly
wicked doer of sinful acts. I read a book, recently, that introduced me
to the phrase, “lukewarm Christian”. These Christians go to
church on Sunday, tithe or participate in the church offering on
Sunday; even volunteer their time. Many often say they will pray for someone who is hurting or in
distress; undergoing a difficult time. The problem with these
Christians, is that it's mainly all show or talk, but for the other 5-6
days of the week, they don't actually "walk the talk". They are serving their OWN personal agenda, and partake
in sinful acts or thoughts, which bring them personal and/or material
gain at the cost of stomping on or depriving other humans of their
basic needs and life sustenance. They are as
guilty as murderers, because their acts are largely pre-meditated. A
TRULY, committed Christian has the LOVE of God in their heart. That love and wisdom comes from the Holy Spirit as expressed in their thoughts, words and
deeds. Life is NOT a head game but should be led by one's heart and soul. Read last year's post about the Seven Churches in Revelation & the type (character) of different Christians/Gentiles.
Yes.
Jesus Christ died for all man and their sinfulness; however, it takes
more than just acknowledging Christ as your Savior and what He did
for you. You can't BUY your way into heaven and everlasting life
with “good deeds” or donating money to charitable causes. You
must come to know Christ as a man AND the Son of God, and allow Him
to “live in you” as you SHARE and spread the love God has for you
and the rest of mankind, WITHOUT expecting a reward or something in
return. Your acts/deeds must be completely selfless. It's called
trust and faith in God. If God is pleased with your behavior, HE will see you receive reward. Only when you live your life this way, can
you REALLY experience true joy and happiness, and be fearless,
regardless of everything going on around you. If just HALF the people
around the globe who profess to be Christians and believe in God,
Christ our Lord, and the Holy Spirit, lived their lives in this
manner, there would be only a fraction of the chaos, hatred, violence
and war that exists everywhere you turn. Man would be working with
and for one another; not against peace, which is driven solely by
greed and an egotistical sense of superiority. It's not man's responsibility to judge his fellow man, but that of God. EVERYONE will receive HIS judgment in the very near future.
Since
early in 2014, a series of events and interactions with my fellow
man, started me on a downward spiral. It consumed my very being. It affected me so much, that God fell from His top priority in my life. On August 15, 2014, I
experienced a medical emergency, which caused my blood pressure to
reach 258/135. It had NEVER reached that level in my life. The
highest I've ever experienced was 199/99, and only once or twice. It
was the chain of events (including conduct & care by the local hospital ED) that occurred after my Medicare Nurseline suggested some
urgency towards seeking evaluation at a local Emergency Dept. (it was 1:45
a.m.). She advised me not to wait till the next morning. Needless to say, this
experience spawned a meltdown tantrum, causing me to want to isolate
and not interact with another human. I isolated self within my
apartment for 5 days, while still experiencing distressing symptoms
and contemplated breaking a personal Golden Contract with God by just
exiting this world of evil chaos and dysfunction.
I'm
already battling numerous health issues, which doctors don't have the
interest or time to pursue, since It's not a cost-effective
commitment, especially someone with only Medicare insurance (due to the greed possessed by insurance & pharmaceutical companies AND
government officials). I'd be better off had I never worked a day in my life & had ONLY Medicaid for health insurance. Even though I've gone off ALL my meds for this
Strike, I was slowly going off them any way since I can't afford them
& seemed to be getting worse, not better.
I make too much SSDI to qualify for Medicaid or healthcare assistance, but not enough for basic self-sufficiency. If I survive the
Strike, I may end up homeless, again. But you know what? Since I
opened my heart to God's love, wisdom & truth, and accepted this
task of the Strike from HIM, with His guidance, I'm no longer
stressed about my future. (Doesn't mean I won't speak out or express my
thoughts or concerns regarding the frustrations I encounter on a
daily basis.) Through my faith & obedience in Him, He will see my
basic needs are met, or I'll go home to Him sooner than expected. I'm
at peace with whatever the outcome. I've experienced homelessness
before, so not even that scares me. My only concern should homelessness occur would be for my 2 loving companion service cats, Pooky & Buddy.
My
entire life I've been bullied by professionals, friends & family.
I was treated and made to believe I had no value as a human being. Therefore, I
figured out MANY, MANY years ago, that if I could help put a smile on
another's face or help other hurting people by using the gifts &
talents God blessed me with, I would find comfort in knowing I wasn't
a worthless human being. I NEVER gave of myself for deliberate,
personal gain or recognition, but to possibly keep another person
from the physical & emotional turmoil and pain that has defined
my existence.
With this mentality (& ADHD), I didn't put the necessary focus on my personal finances nor personal economics, and this has been a major downfall in trying to maintain independence & remain personally responsible for my actions. Personally, I've always placed myself on the bottom of the totem pole, and, therefore, come in last. I often used my own money or possessions to help others, often not retaining enough to meet my own obligations. I never had a spouse or someone accessible to consult regarding financial decisions/actions; only after the fact when it becomes a legal issue (post-contract, default, or bankruptcy). I'm lousy at buying (used) cars, but an excellent driver.
My personal needs or well-being have never been given
the priority I probably should have. Early in life, I was unaware that the physiological distress and chaos I experienced, daily, was not normal. I kept a stiff upper lip, because I thought it was "normal" and everyone else was experiencing the same stuff I was. As a result, my physical and emotional
health has suffered, deteriorated, & become so complex, there is
little hope for my future. When this happens, I have great difficulty
processing viable thoughts, and have limited physical & emotional
strength to be productive. If I cannot be productive with my days or of
service to others, I have no value. If I have no value, I lose all
purpose for existing. I'll go out the same way I entered this life, a
creature without purpose, except for that of my heavenly Creator.
Don't cry
for me, but look inward to yourself in restrospect, and ask yourself
if you've led a purposeful & selfless life, or have you lived
only selfishly for personal gain & reward? Only through true, selflessness can a seeker find the TRUTH, along
with inner happiness & satisfaction; not material wealth or
status. I have found Truth and Peace; have you? YOU can, too. It's NOT too late.
"TRUTH
is God". Only GOD knows and delivers the absolute Truth. We can
pursue simple truth, independently; however, if one's search for
truth is pure & void of self-interest, as Gandhi believed, we
will not be harmed. “...truth to one person will often appear as
untruth to another person...Truth is the right designation of
God...if there is a mistake on the part of anyone so following Truth,
it will be automatically set right...the quest of Truth involves
tapas (self-suffering), sometimes even unto death. There can be no
place in it for even a trace of self-interest. In such selfless
search for Truth nobody can lose his bearings for long.” Mahatma
Gandhi
If you care about yours & your family's future, or anyone else, you need to spread the word to everyone you know about this Hunger Strike. With today's technology and computers, the most effective way for a single person to initiate social change in thinking is through the use of social media networks; hopefully gaining attention of the news media to expand on that initial awareness and "Buzz". God recognizes this, and that is why I feel He defined the 4 optional outcomes leading to the end of this Hunger Strike come via global awareness through social media networks. I'm committed to this Strike for the long haul, and have faith (actually KNOW) that one of the 4 outcomes will end this Strike for me. (I pray it IS NOT the 4th option, though.)
Review the four options, below, then act SOONER, rather than later and spread the word to everyone to create the necessary awareness God expects from mankind. (Now that I have completed my first blog writing regarding this Strike, God has come to recognize that not everyone chooses to connect via Twitter or Facebook, so has determined responses to this blog will fall under Option 3. Only ONE (1) outcome option needs to be met to end the Strike.
OPTION 1:
Tweets or Retweets about this Hunger Strike reach a cumulative 10 Billion followers around the globe (my Tweets can be found on either of 2 Twitter accounts -- @H_Strike4GOD or @SpecialSavant; or
OPTION 2:
My Tweets during Hunger Strike receives 500,000 "Favorite" designations; or
OPTION 3:
This blog or special FB page at http://facebook.com/HungerStrikeForGod receives 50,000 followers or "LIKES"; or
OPTION 4:
I die before option 1, 2, or 3 is realized.
As I complete the writing of this blog post, I have completed 2 weeks already on this Hunger Strike. I am on day 16.
